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12:21 am: "if you run away now, will you come back around?"

I have realized I am going to be posting alot. Like 3 or more times a day. I love letting everything out on here. You'd be amazed on how good it makes me feel. AHH. I love it. It feels like today has been an eternity. So many thoughts have ran through my head today, It's crazy. I don't know it just felt like my day went by really slowly.. not a boring slowly, it just seemed freakishly long. Maybe because I didn't do anything with myself. Yeah... that's probably it. This vacation off from school is going to be pretty laid back for me i think. I really just need a break from going out all day and night. It wears me out. I think it would be best for me to just hang out at home for a while. And i just got over being sick, I don't want to get sick again. Gosh, I was so miserable. I hate sore throats. And not having a voice was annoying. Bleh. Anyways AWKIF has been on repeat for hours now. I could really probably listen to it nonstop for the rest of my life. I notice Paramore is brought into every conversation lol. I showed my mom the Paramore Crazy Out Of The Vault youtube video, and she seemed bored. It depressed me. Because that video is so hilarious. Atleast, to me. I wish I showed her the one Paramore shopping in Target. Whateva."Were doing fine, and it gets better every time" cyber singing again lol, sorry foo. I am ultra stoked for the Paramore concert. I hope it is just as amazing as the one at Roseland Ballroom. God, please let me meet them, please. It would make my dreams come true. But anywho I wish I had a car, or a best friend with a car so I could go somewhere right now. I don't think I have been outside once today. Oh well. It was raining out anyways. My mom is so happy about her boyfriend awwww, it is so adorable, I'm so excited to meet him. It will be awkward at first, but it's all good my mom said he is shy, and so am I when meeting new people. I talk about this situation alot in these entries. But currently that's all on my mind. I am excited for tomorrow because I am going to the movies with my cousins and I like to hang out with them. We have fun together. They are awesome people. We get along so well. I love them. But I'm getting tired of thinking right now, so see ya tomorrow. Peace, Love, and Paramore<3

08:41 pm: And tell me how I lost my power...

"Where Can I turn, Cause I need something more...." .. Well, Hey again.. I pretty much havent accomplished much at all today besides sit here and think about things. I have so much going on.. and I feel like I am becoming a different person. In a good way.. I feel like I now know not to get caught up in all this high school girl drama because I don't want to put myself through all that. It's just too much stress to deal with on top of everything else right now...I see all these girls in my school trying so hard to just be percieved as "cool" when all they are really doing is making themselves look so desperate. I really feel for them, because I understand where they are coming from. I know it feels good to be well liked by other people and everything, but I don't think it means the same when you aren't being yourself...you know? What is the point of being well liked when its not for your own thoughts and ideas. I would much rather have friends for the person i am and that i am true too.. I'm sitting here listening to Franklin.. and its making me want to cry. This song has so much emotion and the lyrics make feel exactly how they feel. It's amazing, I just want to give them a hug. I can't imagine how hard it is to be away from your family,friends, and everything your used to for so long.. But then again I am sure they are enjoying many experiences they would have never had if they were home. I have so much respect for Paramore as people, they are just so strong. YA... So anyways I am starving.. Like.. STARVING. I haven't eaten since about 12 today, and that is a LONG time for me not to eat, haha. But luckily my loving and wonderful mother will be bringing home wendy's for me. Yay, I love her. I am such a fatass haha. I order 2 (yeah 2!!!!)  spicy chicken sandwiches without tomato,french fries, and a small frosty haha. Sad thing is im so hungry right now I could probably eat more than that, haha. I'm glad my room is finally clean!!! Ha, it has been so unorganized for so long and I was just like blehhhhh, but now I can just relax and chill, ya know. I really feel like redoing my myspace, cause it is extremely boring. But I'm just so damn lazy and I am not that creative with all that HTML crap, pff.. LALA.. I don't even know what I am typing about anymore, just basically getting all my feelings out for now. I really like this livejournal.. it really helps and I don't have to write it in a normal journal lol. Well, my moms boyfriend is coming next wednesday and I gotta admit, Im pretty nervous =/. I don't know just the idea of someone I have never met living with me is a bit scary and is going to be very awkward. However, I trust my mother with her decision. Because I know she wouldn't want to put me in danger cause I'm her babygirl haha. I am so happy for my mom though, I really haven't seen her so happy in a while. Actually, I don't think I ever have. And I'm glad she has the oppurtunity to go and get him from California next week, she deserves it. I love her and all she does is work for other people and never gets anything in return. She really deserves it. She is my best friend, and I never want to lose her. I don't know what i would do. But I dont feel like talking about that it gets me sad. ANYWAYS. Let's see what else to say.. Hmmm.. I have to do a project this week... but i don't know when the hell I will do it.. probably sunday night hahaha, bleck. Stupid cavanna and his pointless projects, lol jk I love cavanna, hes so nice. I have to pee but I'm too lazy to get off my fat butt and pee.. HAHA. Whatever, Now I'm just rambling.. Maybe a good topic will pop into my head. I feel really good that I took today to relax and recollect my thoughts. I feel like a new chick., reallly this is so weird. I feel like my own best friend if you get me. It's so strange I have like a completely different outlook on myself, and everyone else. I don't know how to explain it. But it's a good feeling, a really good one at that and I love life right now. Hm. Well I think i have written enough for now But i will definately be back to write more before morning, peace, love and paramore.

03:47 pm: Is this what you have waited for...
So, I'm sitting in my room, listening to All We Know Is Falling.. and procrastinating. I have so much stuff to do around the house it's making me anxious. I just don't feel like dealing with anything right now. I'm so lazy today it is getting rediculous, but then again I have been sick all week so I'm still not myself yet,whatever. Atleast I have the week off from school! This is my first post on LJ ever, pretty awesome. I really like this site but I wish I understood it a little better. I'm sure I will get the hang of it soon. "so we just take it back, these words and hold our breath".. ahh just cyber singing ahahaha. I love Paramore, dude. It's crazy like I never knew i could "love" something so much. People think I am crazy but just it feels like everything I do revolves around Paramore. It sounds a bit sad, but really, it's not. I like it this way. They give me something worth living for, they make me think harder and i dont know just be the real me. My emotional side comes out when I listen to their music. And when their songs are going through my head I feel so connected, like they are singing to me personally.. it's a pretty amazing feeling. But then again I get to attached to their music and I feel like I need to meet them, really badly. Like I feel like my life will not be complete without meeting them because it sounds kind of weird to be a bit obssessed over people who you have never met.. weird. Oh well, I just hope I meet them this year so I am keeping my fingers crossed. It's going to be alot harder nowadays with all this fame they have attained. But I will certainly try my very hardest. Sometimes I wish I wasn't 15 though, because it makes it ALOT harder. I need to have my parents drive me everywhere and do everything for me.. oh yeah and pay for everything. Sucks. Ouch.. I'm getting a cramp in my hand from typing so fast!  So I'm going to go now and I will probably post again before i go to bed. Peace, Love, And Paramore! <3